Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Told the aunts

They were super cool about it actually. My Mom was even in the room, but she didn't say anything. Eh.

Umm, this is more of a tweet-length post than a blog post, but I've been busy.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Aunts still in town

but I haven't told them yet. What happened to me? I used to be a pro at coming out, six months ago; I guess I got rusty.

We've had a great weekend, and I was all planning to do it by now, but I just never got the nerve up. It really is going to change a lot of things.

They're out of town for the evening. I guess I'll do it tomorrow.

In other news; I'm hating work in a way I haven't ever felt before. I really just want to get through this year and then quit. It's gotten to the point that I am stressed out about work constantly, even on weekends. Just thinking about my work is making me tense. It's really never been this bad.

Haven't seen Chris in a week, cause the aunts have been in town. I'm gonna see him tonight. It's gonna be great, although I hope I don't spend the whole time just whining about my job and stuff

Friday, October 23, 2009

Updates on gayness

So having my Mom and her sisters staying at my place hasn't been that bad actually. They're so busy doing touristy things that they're not really nagging me about stuff, and it is nice to have them around.

So I know I'm officially the last gay man on the planet to have seen this, but I really love the Miley Cyrus Fire Island video. It is like an advertisement for gay.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Homeopathic Remedies

Hm, haven't posted in a while so I thought I'd share a little slice of life, as it were.

For some background, you have to know that I used to smoke a lot of pot. Not really that big a deal. I wasn't like a super drug addict, but back when I had a roommate right after college we would spark up and play mario kart and starcraft and it was fun. I hadn't really smoked at all in a few years. My bf smokes quite a bit, and I kind of haven't liked it for the past few years, so I didn't really partake much, and I have to say I tried not to express my dissatisfaction, but I was kind of a hypocrite in my mind, kinda thinking he was a little old to be smoking pot still.

So last Saturday we went bowling for his friend's birthday, and this is so pathetic, but I somehow pulled my back or something. I know. Yoga twice a week and regular gym visits, and I hurt myself bowling. I really am getting old. So I put on a strong face in front of Chris's friends and I even bowled after it hurt which was even stupider, so when we got back to Chris's place I was in super pain. I tried to sleep it off, but in the morning it still hurt like a bitch. Luckily, my boyfriend was there with his home medicine, blow jobs and pot.

The blow job was really good, but the pot was (and it feels incredibly trite to say this about recreational drugs) amazing. I felt fucking fantastic. It was like all the muscles that had tensed up around my back just suddenly let go of all of the tension right around there. I'm a total lightweight, so it only took like 2 hits, but I suddenly went from not being able to move to floating around his apartment. So, yeah, I guess I'm reversing my recently judge-y opinion. Yay for Weed!

Last post for me for a while. Like I said, my Mom and Aunts are in town and that's it's whole own mess. I never really got to talk to my Mom about if she was cool with me coming out to them so I dunno how this is gonna go down :/ Wish I had some more of that back medication right about now.

Saturday, October 10, 2009


So I've been going crazy the past week cleaning and organizing my apartment. It's actually really empowering; I can actually see the floor of my closet now, and I've donated about 4 giant bags of clothes to the Salvation Army. I'm also going to the Container Store like a junkie, getting different kinds of boxes for my shelves, so things aren't just piled there. It looks pretty great, and I'm not even done yet.

The main reason for this is I have a ton of family visitors staying with me starting next week. I live in a studio apartment in Manhattan, so it's not huge to begin with, so any space I can create by throwing out old crap will be greatly noticed when I have 2 or 3 extra people sleeping here. The first wave is my Mom and 2 of my aunts though. I haven't come out to my aunts yet, although I really want to. I kind of indicated to my Mom that if the topic comes up I'm just going to tell them, but she got really quiet and changed the subject. Dunno if I have to bring that up again, but I don't want to just end up springing it on her in front of them. Ugh. Why is it that I feel like the jerk here?

After that, I have some cousins staying with me, and they're cool so it should be a lot of fun. After that I go on a world trip vacation for 2 weeks to see 2 different sets of friends getting married! Should be tons of fun.

In other news, Chris and I bought a beer making kit at a flea market and on Thursday we got together at his giant Brooklyn apartment to start the brew. It was SUPER fun, although it took way longer than I expected, and I didn't get home til 2AM and we didn't even get to have sex! Still, it was an awesome fun date, and I hope our beer turns out drinkable! I could totally see this being a fun thing we do every other month or so.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Recent News

Met up with one of my oldest friends from back home who just moved to NYC and came out to him. He was really supportive- wants to meet the boyfriend and everything, it was nice. It was cool to catch up with him, he's in a totally different line of work than me. He studied premed undergrad, but then went to music conservatories, and now he's in NYC trying to make his name as a jazz musician. It's crazy and ambitious and it sounds awesome. I went to see one of his shows last night too and it was great. I'm not really a jazz guy, but it definitely made my happy, which is all that matters, right?

Everything with the bf is going pretty good. Saturday night after a friend's party I couldn't sleep so he stayed up with me for a long time and we just talked about everything. We talked about his life before New York, previous dating life stuff we'd never discussed, and just general history stuff. It was nothing special, but I still like getting to know more and more about him. Again I feel like such a cheeseball, but even right now when I think about him I have to smile. He makes me happy ;).

And we watched porn together on Sunday. It wasn't that weird!