So here's the deal.

I'm a 29 year old man living in Manhattan, and up until recently I tried to convince myself I was straight, down to dating and sleeping with women. I would clandestinely visit gay porn sites and blogs, and deep down I knew I was attracted exclusively to men. I guess I always hoped it was a phase I would grow out of, or that I could hide it forever and have some kind of sham marriage. But I'm gonna turn 30 this year, and life is too fucking short.

Basically, I just came out to myself. I always thought that would be the hard part, but now I have absolutely no idea what to do next.